March 22, 2023
Emotional State: Getting Sorted
Writing
The image for this post is a Tarot card I pulled this morning and it was so apropos for my day that I had to include it in this week’s journal entry. But even bigger than that was the feeling I got when I decided I wanted to use it as the image for this week’s post. So, I want to talk about that first.
Those feelings? Fear. Worry people will dismiss what I have to say because they find Tarot and astrology (etc.) to be “woo woo” and/or fake. But here’s the thing. I’ve been reading Tarot since I was 17 years old. Not every day, not all the time, but I come back to it whenever I’m a bit lost or muddled. And it always helps me.
I have no problem accepting what other people believe or use to get them through the day, their week, their life, even if I don’t agree with it. So why can’t I extend that same compassion to myself? I have no idea, but I’m working on it. Especially as I am very quickly approaching half a century. It’s time I stop worrying about what other people think.
So, today, I’m putting out there. I’m owning it. Even if my heart is pounding and my fingers slip on the keys in their clamminess.
As I continue to waffle and stress and spin out on all that I want to get done, I finally decided to take matters into my own hands. Or rather, put them into someone else’s and sort my stuff out. So, I’m taking a course called HB90. It’s a goal setting course based on quarters, where you determine what your overall aim is, how much time you have to spend to push toward it, and then you break each piece down from measurable goals to projects to tasks. I’m on day four – Goals.
And the card I chose, The Emperor, has this meaning: Connection with discipline will bring you closer to realizing goals.
Do you see why I like Tarot? It’s telling me I’m on the right path. All the to do lists in the world won’t get me where I want to go (it’s part of the mantra of the course), but setting realistic goals WILL bring the life I want closer to where I am now. So, I’ve set my goals for the next quarter, made them realistic, and will spend the next few days working out the projects I want to work on and the tasks within those projects.
I already feel better. I didn’t need the card to tell me that I was doing the right thing, but it eased my anxiety about the process, which is what I needed it to do.
If you’ve not heard of HB90 (Heart Breathings) or want to figure out your own goals and path to get you where you want to go, I highly recommend it. I’ve not even finished it yet, but man, is it already helping. She does the course quarterly, so you can’t jump in now, but it’s worth it to wait for the next round.
I only hope I have the fortitude to see it through. I think I do, but only time, and the structure I set up, will do that for me.